Today is the day. I can’t say why but I have been looking forward to and dreading the day all at the same time. A year ago today I sustained a traumatic brain injury that changed my life.
I have experienced the most difficult times I have ever encountered over the last year. After my fall, I had terrible headaches, I lost my peripheral vision, I lost my short term memory, and had constant dizziness, just to name a few. I wondered if I would ever get back to the person I was before the accident. I went to therapy four times a week, did the home work they gave me, and worked my butt off. But with all that said, I have had some of the biggest wins this year also! I am happy to say I have made a near full recovery! There still few things I deal with but that is to be expected with a traumatic brain injury.
I needed to make February 2nd a good day so I made the most out of today! I started the day by going to Farrell’s for my 5am workout. Over the past six months I have created an amazing support system there and it only felt right to start my day with my Farrell’s family. Then I made my way to the gym to run. It was the first time in a year I ran because I wanted to run not because I “had” to. And I ended today finishing the run I started a year ago today!
As I finished that run I cheered and I cried. I felt so many emotions, emotions I don’t even know I had. However, it was what I needed, all those emotions that I didn’t know I was holding on to are gone and I can move on. Today was a much needed new start!
I continue to get up and take a step forward, some days it is several and other days it is a step backwards. However, in the long run it’s still forward progress. I feel like after today there is going to be more of the steps forward and less of the steps backward.
A year ago today is just another day on the calendar.