I have a confession and a decision to share with you… I’ve written this post over and over in my head. However, I just couldn’t bring myself to writing it down. I knew once I put it out there I couldn’t hide any longer. Let’s be honest hiding is exactly what I have been doing for the last two months. But it’s time to come out of hiding. So here we go!
I’m Going to Get Real Here…
I have gained just over 70 pounds in the last two years!! Yes, you did read that right. I am mortified!
Okay, yes I did have an accident and sustain a traumatic brain injury. And I will be honest and say that’s where this all started. But I can no longer use the TBI as my excuse. Did it play a large role, yes but it wasn’t the only factor? No, there have been some bad choices over the last two years also.
I had to step away from my blog for a while to really think about how I wanted to proceed. As I have mentioned before I feel like I am a fraud. I have a fitness and wellness blog and I am not fit nor all that well. Why would anyone really read what I have to say? I seriously contemplated getting rid of Getting Fit to Find Myself. I pride myself on being real and I didn’t feel real.
I am happy to tell you that my blog isn’t going anywhere! After some deep thought and a few conversations, I realized I love blogging too much to pack it up and be done.
I am writing this post so that I can come completely clean and have a fresh start. I started Getting Fit to Find Myself to share my journey with weight loss, weight maintenance, and fitness. And yes, most of what I have written about was weight maintenance and fitness but I did say weight loss too. So I am going back to the roots of Getting Fit to Find Myself and I am going to document my whole weight loss journey all over again! Good thing I picked Getting Fit to Find Myself and not something like Staying Fit to Find Myself. At least my blog name still applicable because I will be getting fit to find myself all over again.
Somehow I wrote this whole post without crying. (Let’s just say I wasn’t as lucky when I proofread the post. There were lots of tears.) That’s got to be a sign that I was supposed to do this! It wasn’t an easy or enjoyable post to write but it was one I needed to write. I needed to be open with you, my readers, and myself. Not until that happens can I move on.
I’ve said something like this before but 2018 is going to be my year! I really can feel it! And the first step to that was getting rid of my secret. Now that it is out there I can move on! And that is what I am doing. I’ll be honest, I am actually really excited about the possibilities and the plans I have. I have to take it slow but great things are going to happen in 2018!
I have been able to create an amazing network of people through my blog! And I want to thank each and every one of you! I have been told many times how inspiring I am or how I touch people. Guess what, I’m wouldn’t be those things if it wasn’t for you guys. I am inspired on a daily basis from all of you and wouldn’t be sharing my story with all of you if that wasn’t the case. Thank you!