I said I would start at the beginning so that is what I am going to do. I grew up as your typical kid back in the 80’s. I grew up in a rural area so there was a lot of room to do whatever we wanted. My younger brother and I would ride our bikes all day long or play in the yard, we were always outside. Well that is not so true, I grew up in North Dakota so if you know much about the Midwest, the winters can be brutal. But even then, our mom was big on us getting outside to burn off some energy (she used good judgment as to when it was too cold to be outside).
In junior high and high school I was active as well. I played volleyball in junior high and was a varsity cheerleader for both fall and winter sports in high school. I was never overweight in high school but I wasn’t a small person either. I am short, I always say 5’1 on a good hair day. I wore anywhere between a size 10-12, so yes based on the BMI chart I was overweight but I didn’t feel that. I was never concerned about weight, I didn’t diet, I just didn’t worry about it.
Things changed in college, like they do for a lot of college freshman. I really don’t remember when the weight started to come on but by the time I graduated I weighed more than I ever had. I really don’t know what I weighed, I didn’t have own a scale. About a year after graduation, I joined Weight Watchers for the first time.
The first time I weighed in I weighed 199! I didn’t know what to think but told myself that would be the last time I ever see that number on the scale. I remember that first week on Weight Watchers was killer. I went to my first weigh in, I step on the scale and I was up 1 pound! What, I did everything I was supposed how did that happen? Then the person working asked me why I hadn’t taken my sweatshirt and shoes off. So we did it again without the sweatshirt and shoes, I was down 4 pounds. I had a very successful run on Weight Watchers, I ended up losing 60 pounds. I followed the plan to the T and worked out religiously. I had this weight loss stuff down.
Then I met my fiancé (then boyfriend), I stopped going to Weight Watchers, I couldn’t be bothered with counting points. Slowly, going to the gym fell off too. I was just too busy with the new relationship. If being in a new relationship isn’t time consuming in and of itself add on the fact that we were doing long distance. I was living in Fargo, ND and he was in the Twin Cities. I was driving three hours every Friday and Sunday, spending that much time in a car leads to some very unhealthy habits like fast food and soda, all things I given up when I joined Weight Watchers.
I really don’t know how I did it but I managed to maintain the majority of my weight loss for two years after we started dating. Then we moved in together and well it all went downhill from there. Over the next few years, I not only put on the 60 pounds I had taken off but an extra 46. And, I tried about every diet there was. I did Weight Watchers, I don’t even know how many times. I tried The Biggest Loser online community, I did Spark People, I did LA Weight Loss, I think that is it but I honestly don’t remember. I know now that I just wasn’t ready to lose weight.
This brings us to December 2011, I went home for Christmas and did the whole family thing. I had always tried to stay out of pictures but that side of the family loves pictures so I ended up in a few. A few weeks later I received the pictures in the mail… “Oh heck no, that is not me!” Yes, it was me. How did I let myself get to this point? I thought about doing something about it but I just wasn’t ready.
In February 2012, my boyfiend and I went on vacation to Florida and I planned on enjoying myself. On my first day there I went to Universal Studios to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter. I went by myself because my boyfriend was there for a conference and honestly I was happy I was by myself. I was getting on a ride and I barely fit. I was devastated, and ruined my day there. (Side note: I LOVE Harry Potter and was so looking forward to going to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter.) Then that afternoon, we went to Sea World, several pictures were taken and well that was the nail in the coffin for me.
We got back home on a Friday and Sunday I was signed up for Weight Watchers for the last time…
That is where I will leave you for today. And that is where the journey really begins!