I have been living in denial in regards to the Garry Bjorklund Half Marathon and it was time to start facing the truth. I had made the goal to PR (personal record) my half marathon distance by about 10% this year and I was planning to use that race to do it. I have finally admitted (out loud) to myself that it isn’t going to happen with this race.
Training hasn’t been going as I would have liked or even hoped for. For a big chunk of it I was dealing with some emotional stuff (read about it here) and even thought I addressed most of the issues I haven’t been able to shake the training/race issue. I have known for sometime that the PR wasn’t going to happen because I hadn’t been training like I had been planning on. I have been trying to avoid thinking about it but over the last two weeks I have realized that it was time to deal with it.
By admitting it out loud I realized the big issue is that I am disappointed and frustrated with myself, but with that said I know it all part of my journey! It’s struggles like these that make me stronger! I won’t lie, I considered just skipping the race and not doing another half marathon because I just am not feeling the distance (I haven’t been for a while). But then I thought about it and realized that I have worked way to hard to become the runner I am, to walk away and give up because something isn’t going to go like I planned!
I hired a triathlon coach last week and she has been so helpful in my preparation for the Garry Bjorklund Half Marathon. We have talked about how I am feeling and the few injuries I have been dealing with in the months leading up to this race. After that we discussed changing my focus to just having fun and enjoying the day, there are a lot more half marathons to PR on. And, since we have done that, I am starting to get excited about the race. (It also helps that it has worked out that my mom can now come and cheer me on too!)
I may not (will not) PR but I can enjoy the beautiful course and the excitement of participating in such a big race (for those who don’t know this one of the few races during Grandma’s Marathon weekend). I have another half two weeks later but obviously I won’t be ready to PR that one either so I need to consider if I will do another half this year or if I just won’t meet that goal. Either way the goal for the weekend of the 20th is to have fun and just enjoy the day.