I cannot believe it has been a month since I wrote my last post! It has been a long and winding road but I am finally getting back to MY life! For a while, I wondered if my traumatic brain injury was going to rule the rest of my life. I was concerned if I would ever return to the MY daily activities.
It has been 10 weeks, 3 days, and 8 hours since the fall that forever changed my life. I often think about what if I would have run a different route, what if I would have skipped the run like I was planning to do, what if I would have left 30 minutes sooner so there wouldn’t be snow on the sidewalks, but I can imagine all I want and it isn’t going to change the fact that it did happen.
However, after a lot of sessions of therapy and some hard work I am getting back to MY life. No, it isn’t exactly like it was prior to the fall but it is much closer than it was a month ago, hey even two weeks ago. There is a high likelihood that my life will never get back to pre-fall but I am going to do my damnedest to get there. Who knows maybe it will be even better then it was prior to the fall.
I still deal with headaches, dizziness, memory loss, short term memory issues, trouble articulating my thoughts, concentration issues, and issues with my sight but now I know some much more about them and why I experience them. For the last six weeks, I have been going to four different therapies each week to help me get back to my life.
- Speech Therapy – I have been working with a speech pathologist to address issues like regaining my short-term memory, ability to pay attention, planning, organization and word retrieval skills. She has also helped me create a skill set that allows me to know what my symptom triggers are and how to manage my symptoms when they come on.
- Occupational Therapy – I have been working with an occupational therapist to address my sight issues. The fall caused me to loose most of my peripheral vision as well as impact how my eye muscles work. We are working to regain my peripheral vision as well as strengthen my the muscles of my eye.
- Physical Therapy – I have been working with a physical therapist to get me back to all the activities I did prior to my fall. Our number one focus is getting me back to running. However, to get me there we have had to start from square zero, I started by just walking then adding light strength training, to the elliptical, and now walking three minutes and running two minutes for 45 minutes. The goal is get me to the point of running for 30-40 minutes straight with no symptoms.
- Psychotherapy – I have been working my psychological therapist to deal with all the emotions (there are a lot of emotions). She has helped me deal with all the anxiety this whole ordeal has created as well as helped me avoid going into depression.
It’s because of those four therapies that I am getting back to MY life! In just over a week I get to return to work! It has been three months since I have been able to work. I have tried going back twice, both times ending in epic failures. I know this time, it will be successful. And as mentioned above, I am starting to run. No, it isn’t much but it is a start.
As I always say, my journey is no where near over and I can’t wait to see where it takes me. And it rings very true in this situation because I look forward to getting back to MY life, not the one my TBI wants me to have! I would like to believe that with all my hard work and determination that my life is going to be better than it was prior to my fall.