I have been playing a little pretend over the past few weeks. However, it is time to put it out there. I am emotionally stuck…
For the past few weeks, I have been feeling blah. I hate blah because I cannot pinpoint the issue. It’s not sadness, it isn’t depression, and it isn’t anxiety yet it is something. Maybe it is the time of year? Maybe it is the weather? Yet, I don’t think it is any of those things.
After several weeks of pretending, I finally brought it up with my therapist. And as a result, I am finally getting unstuck!
Within minutes of bring up the subject with my therapist she knew what the issue was! The issue, I was not busy enough. Here I had spent several weeks trying to figure out what was wrong yet she knew the issue almost instantly!
I have always been someone who likes to be busy. In fact, I like to be busy on top of busy. So, you can imagine my surprise when I heard this especially because I had been focusing on limiting my commitments and activities. We discussed different approaches to adding a little bit more to my schedule yet not over committing myself.
Due to that, I will be adding in a few more activities to keep my mind active. I thought that between coaching Girls on the Run, going to Farrell’s every morning, work, and family I was busy enough. However, that is not the case! My therapist thinks that Farrell’s is too early in the morning to even count it in my activities. She might be right, I am done with that by 5:45 am each morning.
So, what should I add in to keep my mind busy? I do not want to commit to anything where I have a commitment to others such as a book club. I am leaning towards taking yoga at a yoga studio. My goal this year was to create a yoga practice. I have been practicing but I would like more studio time. Yoga could also help as I will need to work on quieting my mind while practicing as a result it might help when I am not practicing!
I am also considering barre classes! Barre is way outside my comfort zone and my mind always does better with a challenge. Pure Barre is opening in the coming weeks and it might be the challenge my brain needs!
Finally, I am going to start running! I think it is the biggest missing piece in my life! I haven’t felt whole since I stopped running after my accident. Running has been my outlet. I have tried to fill it many ways but none seem to fill the void. I will not be training for anything, I will just be running.
The approach I am taking has me excited! There is going to be challenges which will help occupy my mind. I also think it will help with my self esteem. Since my accident, I have struggled with accepting the new me and this approach incorporates some of the old things I loved and some new challenges! This is the first time getting unstuck has me excited!
Do you ever struggle with emotional issues? How do you deal with blah?