After a lot of therapy I have finally figured out that I’m not a runner! Even though, I have thought of myself as a runner for the last four years.
I have been struggling emotionally since my accident, I have felt completely lost. I didn’t know who I was because I wasn’t running. In fact, I was forcing myself to run when I was hating every minute of it. Somehow since I had started running in 2013 my identity had changed and I only saw myself as a runner. The thing is, I am not the only one who thought I am a runner. I get asked ALL THE TIME about my running. So in my mind I was a runner.
But here is the thing, I am so much more than a runner. I am a daughter, a sister, a wife, a dog mom, a good friend, a principle business analyst (what is a principle business analyst, if you figure it out let me know!), and so many more things. Yet, I didn’t see that. I only saw myself as a runner.
Once I started seeing that I was more than a runner I started seeing huge emotional improvements. Running is just one of the many things that make me me. I have been a daughter for 36 years yet I don’t go around thinking I am only a daughter. So why did after just four years I start thinking I was only a runner? I have no idea! If you know, let me know because I am dying to figure that one out!
Now, let me say I still love running! I will always love running in some aspect. I really hope that once I get few more emotional and physical issues figured out I can give running a try again and the feeling I felt two years ago is back. However, if that happens I will remember running is just one of the many things I do. It is not who I am.
It only took two therapists and countless session to get here. I am finally finding some peace and not feeling so lost. There is still a ways to go but I am happy with the progress.
I wanted to share this because I think so many people pigeonhole themselves into thinking they are what they do. The thing is, that is just one thing we do. It is just one piece of who we are. We are so complex and that is the fun part. Again, it took me two therapists and A LOT of session to really believe it! So just keep that in mind when someone asks who or what you are.
I will say it again, I am not a runner. You see, I am so much more than a runner!
Have you identified yourself as something and then had it taken away or stopped doing it? How did you feel? How did you move on?