A few weeks ago, I started taking an anti-anxiety medication to help relieve that anxious feeling I couldn’t shake.
I struggled with making the decision of whether or not I wanted to go on medication for my anxiety and mild depression. I had been on medication in the past and didn’t love the side effects that came along with the relief. Now, I have been on the meds for almost a month and I am so happy to say I finally have gotten some relief with minimal side effects.
However, with that said it took some trial and error to get to this point. Initially, I had a lot of side effects. I was constantly exhausted so much so that if I sat down on a comfortable chair or couch I was asleep in seconds, but of course I couldn’t fall asleep at night. Then there was the fact that I had no desire to do anything. It was a struggle to get my workouts in but I forced myself to.
After talking with my therapist, I started taking the med in the afternoon as opposed the morning in the hopes that it would help with the side effects. And it did help, but not as much as I had hoped. So I went back to my primary care physician, we talked for a while and he suggested I try taking half a dose since I was experiencing relief from the anxious feelings I had had for some time.
Guess what? Cutting back to half a dose was exactly what I needed! The meds are working!!! I am still getting the relief from anxiety but the side effects have nearly disappeared!
What amazes me is that over the past two weeks I have had several situation that have presented themselves that in the past would have sent me straight into a full on anxiety attack (if you read yesterday post you know of one of them). However, in all cases I not only didn’t have anxiety attacks, I was able to move on from the situation without any unhappy feelings! That has not happened to me in well over a year, maybe even longer.
As I mentioned, it was a really hard decision for me to go on the meds but I am so happy I did! I had had that anxious feeling for so long I had forgotten how great it feels to not to have it. I know it probably sounds weird but I love that I feel “normal”, I don’t know what “normal” is but I assume that is how I feel now!
If you are one of the many who had problems with anxiety or depression know that there are options! Sometimes it just takes a while to figure out what works so be patient with yourself! However when you do figure out what work it is amazing!